Is this goodbye?

We decided to just be friends
but to be honest I feel like this is the end.
I feel like we could be great,
great enough I am willing to wait.
4 years may feel like forever
But cheat on you I would never
From boot camp to war Im here to stay
It doesn’t matter what you say.
The letters you sent so full of love
Cant help but think you were sent from above
My feelings for you 100% true
But your feelings for me I wish I knew
I cant ask you to stay
If you don’t feel the same way
The tears that I cry
Are just not wanting to say “Goodbye”
But we both know what has to be done
And wait and see if our time is to come
The time spent together
has been better than ever
and just know that I love you
“even in this stormy weather”

~ Sunday 10/24/10 ~

One Year

We met about a year ago
But at that time you didn't know
Thanks to her you texted me
From that day forward there was a "we"
That first night together, your hand inside mine
It was then that I knew, everything would be fine
All through the summer continuing to be
Hanging out and watching movies, just you and me
You want to kiss me, but become unsure
Through out this time I'm waiting to endure
You ask for me to make the first move
But with my bad flirting skills it wasn't so smooth

~ May 29, 2010 ~

Night and Day

You do this to me night and day
The words you say and games you play
My feelings for you will always be true
Day by day, through and through

~ Date Unknown ~

Day by Day

Day by day I hope and pray
That we could be the same way
The way we were a time before
Before you said you loved her more
You tell me about her
And her about me
But my love for you , you don't see
I've never said "I Love You"
Cuz if I do
It may be true
Knowing we are only friends
Hoping that it never ends
Trying to be smart
But wanting to give you all my heart

~ Date Unknown ~

Why Do I Love Him?

Why do I love him?
With everything he's done
Not once, twice but 3 times gone
My love for him will never go
His love for me I'll never know

~ Date Unknown ~

Does He?

Does he hear what I say?
Understand how I feel?
Know what I love?
I think he hears
I hope he feels
Wanting his love

~ Date Unknown ~

What is Love?

What is love?
Wanting your lips
Hearing your voice
Knowing the truth
Seeing your eyes
Holding me close
Not ready to let go
Heart pounding with the sight of you

~ Date Unknown~

Saying Things

You say things I wish you were true
Never knowing how you feel
Hoping, wanting, loving you
With a kiss to deal the deal

~ Date Unknown ~

Does He Love Me?

Does he love me?
It's hard to tell
If only I had a wishing well
I'd wish for the truth
to love and be loved
Is it worth it?
If he puts me through hell?
I feel as if I'm only a game
Someone he can always play
He says he loves me
But it's not the same

~ Date Unknown ~

Change

4 months together
3 months apart
And yet there's still
No change in heart
I love you now
As I did then
Even if just as a friend
Hoping things will slowly change
Wanting you with in my range
Missing all that you are
Again stuck watching from a far

~ Wednesday December 23, 2009 ~

The Truth

The things I said I wont deny
I want the truth and not a lie
On that day you met my father
An hour later I became a bother
Whatever she told you can't be true
But it ended me and you

~ Saturday December 12, 2009 ~

It's Bad

Your know that it's bad
When you wake up and cry
Constantly sad
And wanting to die
Not a word or two
Even now and then
Still makes you sad
Again and again

~ Saturday December 12, 2009 ~

Missing You

I miss you like crazy
Yes it's true
From the things that you say
To the things that you do
From the look in your eyes
To the touch of your skin
Your arms around me
Could never be a sin
4 1/2 months you were here to stay
Until listening to gossip took that away
The sound of your voice
Brings me pain
But I know that's your choice
And we'll never be the same

~ Saturday December 12, 2009 ~

I think with my heart

I know I'm not your average teen
Part of the in crowed, part of the scene
I'm shy but outgoing, loving and smart
And one thing's for sure , I think with my heart
I'm such a romantic and hate to play games
Unfortunatly this has happened
I'm not giving names
I can't stand the drama that comes with the boys
And the way they think girls' hearts are just toys
Now we all deserve that one special guy
The one that will love us and not make us cry
We need to not settle on just being liked
But rather for love and knowing who's right

~ Tuesday March 9, 2010 ~

Im Sorry...

I'm sorry that I care so much
I'm sorry that I miss your touch
I'm sorry that I fell for you
I'm sorry that my heart was true
I'm sorry for the things I said
I'm sorry for where this lead
I'm sorry for the way I felt
I'm sorry that you made me melt
I'm sorry that she lied to you
I'm sorry your friends became so few
I'm sorry that you made me cry
I'm sorry that you said goodbye
of all the things I'm sorry for
I only have but one more
I'm sorry that it's me you lost
and I hope one day you realize the cost

~ Tuesday March 3, 2010 ~